To the naked eye

You may have said it. or maybe i just can't remember anything anymore.
Can't really differentiate reality or fantasy these days.
I kept it real. The whole package.
Real than any other realist

The fact that none of it matters,money,love,life as death would come for us all.
Living life and knowing that there is no such thing as coincidence.

As everything happens for a reason and somehow there is nothing and I mean nothing than you could to can change it.
Point is,Fate is inevitable.

Probably at some point of your life you did love me.
But we both knew,that you only loved the idea of me.
Not me.
Only the good things you see.
Meanwhile,
i love you.

Hamba

Tuhan itu Maha Adil.
Bukan kerana Dia beri apa yang aku hendakkan.
Dia berikan aku apa yang aku perlukan.

Maha Mengetahui
Walaupun Dia tahu akan isi hati aku
Namun Dia lebih mengetahui akan takdir ku.

Takdir
Tidak akan aku mampu untuk mengubah takdir.
Kerana aku tidak berkuasa seperti Dia.

Maha Berkuasa
Hanya Dia yang mampu megubah segalanya.
Kerana Dia Maha Berkuasa.

Aku hanyalah seorang hamba

Final

I miss you.
I love you.

The two sentences that you will never hear i say it to you again.


You're the one.
But you're the one who got away and i know you'll always be that.

We are perfect for each other.
Too perfect that we'll hurt each other if we to be together.

I love you so much.
That it kills me when you say no to us.

If its meant to be,it will be.
It wouldn't be.
Not in this life probably.

Love fade you said.
For you it would.
For me,its like i've been played.
But if i was being played,
How come the feelings is so real?

Deep down you know it real.
You know it wasn't a game for me
It wasn't a game for you.
Its just fate.

He knows better,you and me sure of it.
But the pain and agony i felt.
I'm the only person will live to tell it.
Worry not,i'll keep this to myself.
Just like my love to you,
I'll keep it locked deep down inside.
This is my little secret.
Forever and Always.

Brick by brick

Rome wasn't built in a day. These words lingers around in my mind everyday.
Slowly,i'm trying to build an empire.

Mercy

There are only two explanation. 1st would be that she moved on completely from me and 2nd is that she hates me. Either way,make me forget her Ya Rabb. Have mercy on me and help me forget her.

Egoistic.

Not yet He says

No name

We talked.
There's so much i wanna tell her
There's so much i wanna ask her
Yet,
The conversation ended.
Like strangers,we parted.
From strangers to lovers and then back to strangers,again.
No goodbyes this time,cause we're both in pain.

Wish

How i wish that i was having a conversation with you.

How i wish i could look into your eyes and tease you with the word i love you.

How i wish we wouldn't be this way. 

I wish that i could turn back time.

I wish that i could make things better

I wish that i could make you happy

End of Chapter 2

One week to the end of being an undergraduate. A lot happened. Both good and bad. Nonetheless,i thank God it is all over. Thank God for everything that happened. Regardless the bad or good,i learned my lesson. Life is mean. Life is cruel. Life loves to sucker punch you. They say pain is temporary. I say the pain may last forever but through that pain,you learn. You learn that not all you plan will happen as it suppose to be. You learn that not all your friends that were with you in the beginning will stay till the end. You learn that hardwork does not equal sucess. You learn that money isn't everything. You learn to cherish every moment cause there may not be another moment like that.  Have faith in yourself. Have faith in Him. Keep on planning. Keep on designing you life and keep on praying. Cause He will hear your prayers.l and He will grant you what you desire. Maybe not now. Maybe not in the nearest future but someday

Words

There are no words could describe how much i miss you. Feelings don't fade. Now matter how much i try to forget,no matter how much i try not to think bout you,at the end of the day,i still think bout you. I still have thoughts about you. Places we went to,things that we did together,stuff we talked bout,stuff we bought together,pretty much everything. I still remember. At the end,that is what i have left. Memories of the one that i loved with all my heart. I still do. We may not see each other ever again,but do know this, you will always have a place in my heart and no one could replace you . Forever.